Not too long after my last post, when I felt out of the gastrointestinal woods, the abdominal pain returned. It gradually got worse until yesterday we checked into urgent care at MSK. A CT scan revealed a bowel obstruction caused by adhesions which are latent side effects from the RPLND. A kink in the tubing. Boo.
This morning I had an NG tube inserted into my nose and down into my stomach with suction that seems to have relieved some of the pressure and the waves of pain are less frequent and less intense (although the tube itself is no picnic). Hopefully when the bowels can rest enough they will unkink themselves which happens in most cases. Worst case scenario is that they will have to operate.
It was hard to come back here so soon. At times it feels like I’m in some sort of medical “Groundhog’s Day” where there is no forward momentum and so much familiar uncomfortable ground is retreaded.
Trying to imagine all of the snowmelt and spring waters -all that hydraulic movement- to inspire my body to open the flow.
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Om Mani Padme Hum ~ a thousand times for you brother. <3
LOVE AND WARM WISHES……to infinity. You are in my mind and in my heart.
Hi Jay,
I hope the doctors can figure a way to help you and that you get to leave the hospital soon!
Take care.
Darby
You’re absolutely amazing with your unbelievable upbeat nature – you’re an inspiration. We are praying for you nightly and send much love and special wishes that your kink is unkinked quickly and that your pain subsides.
Aline and Bill Haynes
This is nothing short of completely sucking ballz……I hear what you’re saying and honor it.
But…. We both know you’re in the right place physically. Now go there mentally. You’ve been an inspiration through all this. Dig deep through all the shit (literally!) and shine bright brotha!!!!!!!
Ugh this BLOWS. Trying to this about all those dead tumors – eyes on the prize! – but wishing you didn’t have to go through this on top of it all. Love love love to you.
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6″ of new snow about to fall here in MN with 50 degree temps to follow….the flow is happening! Hang on!
Jay,
Steve Ewing is doing a wonderful job on the Cat!
And I’ll send you photos of your decreasing ice, river valley, and lonely cabin tomorrow.
Keep the faith, Bro.
X,
Robin
with you now brother, that ice is slowly melting
I’m sure each bump is getting you closer to recovery. We are still behind you pushing good karma your way. xot
Hey Jay… sorry for this news, geez, it’s been a long haul. We’re sending you light and love and positive energy every day. Keep focusing on the positive things not the set backs, and feel the amazing support and love hitting you from far off zip codes! Your tribe is with you on this journey!!
Sending love & light, Jay <3
Oof. I’m so sorry to hear this. I am sending vibes of healing and openness and love.
Sending warm healing energy, breath. Hard steps in this battle. One unicorn slipper step in front of the other. Love to you.
So sorry you have to go through this Jay, I hope you will feel better soon. Let us know if there anything we can take care of for you in Pawling.
Oh, no! So sorry, Jay. Visualizing your unkinking colon and you back on your land very soon.
Sorry to hear. Can I swing by Friday?
shoot me a note tomorrow afternoon – we’ll see how i feel. thnx.
Hang in there. I know it does feel like it is one step forward and another back at times but in reality it is all still moving forward. You’ll get there. Stay Strong!!